Tuesday, January 31, 2006

i knew it!!

I KNEW IT!! My Bond Teacher is married! Solitaire, aka Mrs. Bond Grrl got married in Hawaii this past December. Something told me that she was going to do it when she said that she was going there for the new year. I'm sooo happy for the both of them. They look like and act like the perfect couple. Her James seem to compliment her so well. I haven't had the opportunity to meet either of them but, from our conversations thru the blogs, they both have it all together.
I saw the wedding pictures and they are beautiful. She looked so happy. Now I know what it looks like to be 'glowing'. There was a lot of KISSING DURING the ceremony : ) and smiling. Solitaire is such a funny woman, she was doing a lot of laughing too, the wedding looked soo fun. And just like the perfect Mrs. Bond Grrl, she was well prepared for all situations. The pastor wasn't quite prepared for the wedding so Mrs. Solitaire had her trusty Blackberry with so that he could perform the ceremony.

So, now I'm back on this marriage trip again. I got on it a day before I saw Solitaire wedding pics. I don't necessary want to get married now but, I wanna know that I will one day. I know that my James is the one I wanna be with. I know that I'm the one that he wants to marry (I don't like this word) but, when???? I can't and am not going to sit around and wait 6,7,8,9 years!!!!

I'm starting to like this blog, and I'm getting comfortable with writing.

Congratulation MR. & MRS. Bond Grrl
May God Bless you!

Friday, January 13, 2006

It's Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr's weekend. For me and others a three day weekend. For me it will be much more. I'm going to take the day to reflect on the many great things he has done for me.
There are many celebrations in my area to celebrate his legacy and I'm going to participate in them. I have a responsibility to do so. I have the whole day mapped out and I'm looking forward to getting started.
I'm going to take my daughter to the liabrary and rent some documentaries on his life. She's young and her school mentioned him in their history books but I want her to learn more. I've listed some quotes that he has made. Enjoy. Happy MLK Jr. Day!

If physical death is the price that I must pay to free my white brothers and sisters from a permanent death of the spirit, then nothing can be more redemptive.
On learning of threats on his life, June 5, 1964


If you will protest courageously, and yet with dignity and Christian love, when the history books are written in future generations, the historians will have to pause and say, "There lived a great people—a black people—who injected new meaning and dignity into the veins of civilization."
From an address given in Montgomery, Ala., Dec. 31, 1955




Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere.
Martin Luther King Jr.
Like an unchecked cancer, hate corrodes the personality and eats away its vital unity. Hate destroys a man's sense of values and his objectivity. It causes him to describe the beautiful as ugly and the ugly as beautiful, and to confuse the true with the false and the false with the true.
Martin Luther King Jr.
We must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools.

We will have to repent in this generation not merely for the hateful words and actions of the bad people but for the appalling silence of the good people.
Yes, I see the Church as the body of Christ. But, oh! How we have blemished and scarred that body through social neglect and through fear of being nonconformists.
There can be no deep disappointment where there is not deep love.
No, no, we are not satisfied, and we will not be satisfied until justice rolls down like waters and righteousness like a mighty stream.
The question is not whether we will be extremists, but what kind of extremists we will be.
I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.
Freedom is never voluntarily given by the oppressor; it must be demanded by the oppressed.
Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity.
It may be true that the law cannot make a man love me, but it can keep him from lynching me, and I think that's pretty important.
Law and order exist for the purpose of establishing justice and . . . when they fail in this purpose they become the dangerously structured dams that block the flow of social progress.
I have almost reached the regrettable conclusion that the Negro's great stumbling block in his stride toward freedom is not the White Citizen's Councilor or the Ku Klux Klanner, but the white moderate.
If a man hasn't discovered something that he will die for, he isn't fit to live.

It is my hope that as the Negro plunges deeper into the quest for freedom and justice he will plunge even deeper into the philosophy of non-violence. The Negro all over the South must come to the point that he can say to his white brother: "We will match your capacity to inflict suffering with our capacity to endure suffering. We will meet your physical force with soul force. We will not hate you, but we will not obey your evil laws. We will soon wear you down by pure capacity to suffer."
One who breaks an unjust law that conscience tells him is unjust, and who willingly accepts the penalty of imprisonment in order to arouse the conscience of the community over its injustice, is in reality expressing the highest respect for law.
We who in engage in nonviolent direct action are not the creators of tension. We merely bring to the surface the hidden tension that is already alive.
I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.
We have genuflected before the god of science only to find that it has given us the atomic bomb, producing fears and anxieties that science can never mitigate.
Shallow understanding from people of good will is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill-will.
I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I've looked over, and I've seen the Promised Land.

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

the big 3-0!

I'll be 30 years OLD next year!!! How did I get so old so quick? What am I going to do? I wanted to be married! I wanted to be in my career making at least 6 figures! Just finishing up building my dream home! Three kids, a dog and cat! fairy tale ...but do able. I'm not nearly close to those things but, I do have one of the three kids with no more coming ever. (LOVE her dearly) Who's to blame? Me? Family up bringing? Society? The Man? I don't know??Probably no one. I have to get over it, it's not to late? Right?
I've been on this marriage trip for the past few days. I think it also came from watching Wedding Crashers (wanting to have a big party reception). Telling one of my best grrl friends that I HAVE to be married before I turn 30. Mapping out my wedding with one of my co-workers (the only one I like!). Already soliciting family for donations toward my wedding. Just all kinds of crazy things. :0
I had to snap back into realilty quick! I'm not ready for marriage. I'm to embarrassed to even tell my James about all my stupid debt, I'm not sure if I can even stay committed to one man let alone live with one and I don't know how my daughter feels about having another daddy. But my main thing is my debt. It sucks bad! I mean I'm not 20K in debt ( I don't think?) But I haven't even began to address the problem by talking to creditors, making payment or anything like that. I'm just ignoring their phone calls, praying that one day I can get right, hit the lotto or meet a rich man. Sad but true! I guess that why I'm a baby bond grrl. I have so much to learn.
My James will only be 28!! (I think I'm too old for him?!) He's a good guy. He has most of his priorities together. He's pretty good to me and my kid. His mature in some cases and in others he's a complete dummy. He's the first guy I really thought of spending my life with. So, we've only been dating for a year & eight months. I don't know if that's long enough to be really talking about marriage without scaring him off. Number one he's not the talkative type, I mean he talks very little. I think he's more of a doer. He shows his feelings through his actions. Which can be very difficult to deal with a lot of times. But I love the man.
I'm going to be 30 in a year. SO what, if GOD bless me to see it I will embrace it and hopefully I will be a better woman by then.