New Year New Bond Grrl
Well today is my last day of work before the new year. I'm glad because I need a break from this place! I've been working non-stop since I was 15. (Well, I took off for about 2 months to birth a baby.) Anyway, I've done just about everything, fast food, work with the mental disable, the most prestige people in Indiana, retail, teaching .... just about everything. I had the honor to work with some of the most intelligent over 40 women in NW Indiana. I've learned so much from them on a professional and personal level. I said that I can't wait to be 40 so that I can have it "together" like them. Even with my new teacher Solitaire who I'm guessing is about 40 (she's so smart!!) I'm learning so much and again I can't wait because I don't think that you not the "bomb" till you reach that age. I heard the other day that 40 is the new 20.
Anyway, I been blessed up until now I'm finally in my career as an Accountant with for the government and I meet these bitter old excuse my french Bitches! I've never seen more miserable women in my life. Their always talking about each other. I've been told some talk about me but, I don't care because none of them know me and I don't say anything but hi and bye to them. My supervisor is in that mix. And our situation is different because she's bestfriends with my James' mother. I didn't get the job through her (my ex-James). We started off cool (I've been here only about 7 months) but then my James told me to be careful around her because she's said somethings about me to his mom. I know it's a lot of he said she said but..... I don't mess with her unless it's about work. Now she's mad because I don't talk to her about her loser, cheater, user James. So long story short she moved my desk and being the lil grrl I am I'm mad! I'm walking about with my lips polked out rolling my eyes. I need to get over it and I will next year. I'm working on being the best Bond Grrl I can be.
Happy New Year
It's Christmas Time
I am a last minute shopper. Yes, I'll be out Christmas Eve still looking for that perfect gift for my love ones. It doesn't bother me too much I can hang with the crowds. Also, I'm making my James his favorite dessert (banana pudding) for Christmas. I hope he likes it, it's a surprise. FYI I'm not a Betty Crocker. We'll see! Wish me luck.
What ARE my Bond grrl adjectives???
So my Bond grrl teacher said that I (we) need to come up with adjectives to "embody" my inner Bond grrl self. So for the past several weeks I've been coming up with some that describe me now and how I want be later in life. I haven't come up with many and some came from Solitaire. I tried not to use adjectives that describe how I look. I'm in a transition right now and I'm in between my phycial self right now. (did that make sense?) Here is my list:
Me now; overwhelmed, passionate, crazed, sensual, depressed, mysterious, clutter bug, confident, faithful, respectful....
I wanna be; savvy, sultry, happy, adventurous, aware....
I'm sure there are more adjectives that describe me and I'm going to do this exercise with one of my grrlfriends to see what we can come up with but, this is what I've come up with now. I have them posted in my cubicle at work to nurture my inner bond grrl.
Now I know that my adjectives are suppose to match my life style. And what I eat needs to be better, because I just had Mickie-Ds. I am trying hard to eat right but it's soo hard! : ( I admit I'm a an overwhelmed frazzed businesswomanmotherI'llmaketimeforsexpleasetouchmedidyoutakeoutthegarbage woman.
I went through my closet and drawers this past weekend and I'm embarrassed to say, but not all my undies match and I do have "granny period panties" but they are gone now. To my defense everything is basic black so I don't always buy matching sets. I'll work on that. My closet was a project in itself. I don't have a lot of clothes, my closets are just so small and everything is so cluttered. I tried to do the "black based","brown based, and the "blue based" (putting my clothes in a color catagory) but the only color in my closet is black and blue jeans! So I just rearranged what I have so it's not so cluttered. It's much better now!
My quest has only just begun, I know that I have a long way to go in hopes to be the Best Bond Grrl I Can Be.
Soul Searching
When I first decided to begin this blog I had so many ideas of topics to write about. Now my mind is blank! I really don't know where to start.
It's Christmas time and it's depressing because for most people (including myself) it's about buying gifts for family & friends. This year I'm not making half of what I was last year, but I still have to purchase gifts for everyone. I have a problem with letting people know I'm broke. I don't know why, I just feel like I'm responsible for doing so much for everyone. But I have decided that I'm not going to let this stress me out. I'm going to take care of my daughter and that's it. If I have extra then I'll do extra. (sigh of relief)
I still don't know where to begin.
Bond Grrl, my last post I said that I'll speak more about being a Bond grrl and why every lady should be one. My
teacher Solitaire said that Bond grrls represent feminine strength, beauty and resilience. They are strong-willed, smart, dangerous, elegant. "Timeless, intelligent and not naive." She said that, "...Confidence and feeling comfortable with yourself are very, very attractive attributes. And due to this confidence, a Bond grrl can (and does) do anything." I've always had a hard time trying to explain things to others (my word don't always come out right). But, Solitaire explains Bond grrls keys roles' they play in their James' lives, how to be completely in charge of her life, and finding out what she is passionate about and then pursuing that. Of course you know who James is?? James Bond??? We all should have one or wait for him to find us.
http://bondgrrl.blogspot.com/Well, I don't know if I explained what a Bond grrl is and I really don't know what this has to do with soul searching but I'm finished for now.
A New Grrl
I'm starting my New Years Resolutions early. Some are: getting in shape, get my finances in order, be a better parent, be a better grrlfriend, a more understanding bestfriend and by doing these things become a BOND GRRL!! I read somewhere that it's hard to make new years resolutions and keep them at the beginning of the year. It might be better to set them when it's more convenient for you. Start goals when you know you have the time and energy to work on it. Also, set goals during a time frame that works for you. A year might not work so set shorter goals of 6 months, 3 months or maybe 1 month depending on you and what you want to accomplish.
I started my fitness program in October. It's coming alone...I haven't started on my finances yet. I think that becoming a better parent is going to take my life time. I can see a change in my
James so, being a better grrlfriend
might be working. As for being a more understanding bestfriend, if you had some of the friends I have(and knew their issues) you'll know that this too will take a life time! (smile w/luv)
With the help of Solitaire from
http://bondgrrl.blogspot.com/, the founder of Double OH! Productions and fEmpowerment
http://www.doubleoh.com/index.html I am going to complete my quest to be the Best Bond Grrl I Can Be.
Just a few weeks ago, I didn't know what a blog was. I've heard about them on the news but I didn't know how serious it was. You can get/give all kinds of info from all over the world with a blog.Pepole talk about what some may concider their most private lives. With that being said that's how I met Solitaire. She is very smart and gives a lot of good information about everything. She's the Bond grrl I want to grow up to be.(smile)
Next time I'll talk about who's a bond grrl and why we should all strive to become one.
There's a quote that I heard a time ago and it stayed on my heart. I think that no matter who you are and where you come from, this is a good way to think.
I don’t think of myself as a poor deprived ghetto girl who made good. I think of myself as someone who from an early age knew I was responsible for myself, and I had to make good.
Oprah Winfrey
